Trusting Spirit

I started this blog on November 23, 2022 and this is what I wrote:

I’ve learned to trust Spirit.  She has guided me to stay home this winter and embrace the cold.  At first I was like wtf??  Are you sure?  Can’t be.  I usually escape the winter.  Escape means to break free.  Interesting… as if the winter was to blame for my struggles.  Why did I feel the need to break free?  This is a recent need in the past 5 years.  I used to love winters.  The cold and dark has answers, my friends.  Deep and delicious answers and I can’t wait to uncover them. 

Well, it is now mid-January and shew!  I have gone pretty deep.  There was no escaping.  I will detail in my next couple of blogs titled "Diving into your Shadow" and "The Fourth Dimension"

True freedom is the ability to feel peace no matter what physical location you’re in.  Ask yourself if you physically need to be somewhere else to find peace or yourself, are you really going deep?  This Earth is just a minor pit stop on our soul’s journey. It really shouldn’t matter where you physically reside in this snap shop of eternity.  Ask yourself what you’re running from.

You may ask who is Spirit?  One definition is a supernatural being or essence.  I refer to her as my spirit guides, ancestors, higher self, angels, Gods/Goddesses, Source, faeries, dragons and any other magical being guiding my journey. 

How do I communicate with Spirit?  In the beginning communication mostly came from sitting in silence through meditation.  Many times I would feel an energy near me and I will ask who it is and what the message is.  This would come through as a vision or message.  More recently I am getting a clear knowing of a message.  Words will pop into my conscious space that are so clear.  There are even times I will have a conversation with myself.  There are times where I may feel anxiety about a situation or decision.  I will allow myself to sit with those emotions and observe and evaluate them.  And most of the time out of the blue I will get a resounding "Fuck Yes" or "Fuck No"!  I will even say it out loud and there is my answer.  This happens more quickly these days.  I will give a situation or question to Spirit and trust I will be guided to my path.  And guess what?  I never revisit that situation or question again.  I used to.  I used to revisit and reanalyze my decisions.  The amount of energy I wasted on this!

We all have Spirit and they are here to guide us on our journey.  You can ask them for help at any time.  You may hear people say they will put a situation/issue/decision out into the Universe.  It's the same thing.  I used to say this, but now I have a strong bond and relationship with Spirit.  I see them and communicate with them regularly. 

Other situations where Spirit has guided me:

• Make art - I was guided in 2020 to make art and am still guided to continue making art even when I question it

• Become a Reiki and sound healing practitioner

• Starting a business/Stopping a business

• Ending relationships

• Places to travel

• Places to live (exact home)

• Walk away from a passion

• Stay at my corporate job

• Grow my hair long

• Social media sabbaticals

• Clear answers on paths

• Being guided to help others during their “caterpillar” stage

• Other messages that pertain to worldly or even other-worldly things - for example, I once received the message "wind is whispers from the Universe" and now I love wind.  I just listen and I gain more clarity and feel my vibration rising when the wind howls!

When you're struggling with a situation take some time and sit in silence, connect to Nature, and ask for help.  Ask for answers.  Remember the answer may not come right away.  It may come across as a message you see on tv or in a song or in a phrase you read.  You will experience synchronicities where you are able to connect happenings that seem random, but really aren't.  Pay attention to those.  Pay attention to those goosebumps you get.  That is an energy shift.  Or it could be some other physical symptom to your body like ear itching or crown tingling.  Pay attention to those moments when the chatter in your brain completely stops for no reason and you are made to ponder.   Pay attention to those moments when you begin to daydream.  There is a message or answer somewhere in all of this. 

When you trust Spirit your life is divinely guided and much of the worry, anxiety, and fear you may experience will fall away.

Social Media Sabbatical

I decided to take a social media break. 

I’ve increasingly been feeling a disconnection from Spirit.  In fact it is Spirit who is guiding me to step away.  I heard myself on the podcast giving advice to others to disconnect from social media if it makes you feel anxious.  And I made the comment “It’s glorious!”  Because it is.  And Spirit pinged me as if her eyebrows were raised and arms were crossed. I’ve never had a comfortable relationship with social media.  Yes, it’s a form of connection, but the most important form of connection is to yourself.  I believe electronics has disconnected us from ourselves and Nature where ALL the answers lie.  There is zero disinformation within ourselves and Nature.  There is lots of great content on Social Media and I’ve pared those I follow down to those I find inspiration from, but I was increasingly only finding confirmation of my spiritual experiences and not really any ah ha moments. I believe social media can sway one's own spiritual journey.  It can cloud it or influence it when really each person's spiritual journey is their own.  Social media is a distraction.  I’ve done several breaks with the longest being 7 months.  Each time I go deeper into my spirituality.  I'm excited to see where this takes me.  I'm already in awe of all the divine creativity flowing to me!!

I recently starting reading my journal back from 2 years ago when I started my deep journey.  Wow, it was all so spectacular and magical!  I wasn’t sharing anything about my journey at that time.  I love sharing my journey, but it doesn’t feel right to ME to share in the manner social media asks you to. It doesn't resonate with me.  I also found myself spending too much time on social media.   How many people ignore the analytics that pop up on their phone sharing how much time they spend on social media?  Where else could that time be spent?

Maybe try not going on social media for one day and see how many times you pick up your phone and go to tap the icon.  It’s not easy.  It’s a pattern. It’s a habit.  Is it healthy?   Ask yourself do you really need it?  What is it bringing you?  Is it truly bringing you closer to yourself?  If it makes you feel good, why?  Is it feeding ego? Is it mind-numbing activity?  Why would you want to do anything that is mind-numbing??  Alcohol and drugs are mind-numbing, right?   All great questions to ask.  When you walk away and release something it allows for something more enriching to flow in.

It's only been three days and I've already read more, meditated more, and created more than before.  I'm even writing much more! I am also going to bed earlier and getting much more restful sleep and having vivid dreams I can remember!  I am also way more present in all conversations and activities.  I'm consciously more present than I was before.  I've also noticed I'm lighter.  I feel lighter. 

See a poem below that came to me while writing this.

Don’t go too big, you’re programmed to believe  Fit within the paradigms and even algorithms   Your message has to be tidy and succinct   Play by the rules…  Control Confinement Suppression Oppression Shadow banning More patriarchal rules And we choose to abide                                                                                                                      

January 21, 2023 Update: It’s been over 2 months since disconnecting from social media and all I have to say is Wow Wow WOW! Social media is an addiction, folks. It is no different than alcohol, drugs, and even fitness. It is an escape from having to deal with reality. It’s an escape from having to dive into the depths of your shadow to figure out your shit. It’s an avoidance of the hard work needed to find your soul’s true purpose on this Earth.

These past 2 months have drug me to the depths of my inner being. I have retrieved parts of my soul that were floating out there due to trauma from past lives. Yes, I gained memories of these and had to do deep healing to release them. It was difficult. It was crushing at moments, but alas! Here I am on the other side feeling so much love and peace that I can’t even begin to describe it. It’s called the 5th Dimension. No, I didn’t travel to some far away beautiful country. I stayed home isolated swimming in the sea of my soul navigating myself home. I literally did NOTHING, but sit with myself and my feelings. We are all so busy DOING (and achieving) that we forget to just BE. I experienced a huge shift. I have the most clarity now than I’ve ever had in my entire life. There is no way I could’ve done this if I was connected to social media. No way.

I am so very thankful I haven’t gained a following on social media. I now see it was purposeful. To be honest, it never resonated with me. I never felt comfortable trying to do what was necessary to gain a following. I constantly see those with a massive following trying to feed the lions and having to put out content to fit an image they’ve created. They are continuously trying to stay relevant. It has to be exhausting! There is limited authenticity in social media. Social media influences you to act, be, play a certain way. I can feel the energy from those who are trapped by it and literally cannot take it any more and their soul is screaming for it to stop, but are so attached to those numbers and post likes that IT IS LIKE A DRUG. They can’t even step away. Addiction. SociaI media is rooted in the third dimension. I choose not to play. The reality is social media will be gone in the future. We will communicate via energy, consciousness, and telepathy. That is already happening. I choose to play in the future :)

January 27, 2023 Update: I experience a huge release and shift last week as I stated above and guess what happened? I had three new Reiki clients reach out to me within 2 days. I hadn’t done Reiki on anyone since early November. I was in no position to. I had much internal work to do to get to the next level to be able to help my clients. I didn’t close down my shop or put out a notice. The energy spoke the word and then within days of me experiencing a huge shift, boom! I have three new clients. My shifted energy moved into alignment with those needing my services. All the stories were the same…They are feeling blocked and disconnected and Googled and found me. My story resonated with them. I feel so blessed and grateful right now to know I am uncovering my gifts to truly help people. I didn’t put any advertisements out or blast on social media. I have done nothing different in the past 3 months. THIS is what I’m talking about above. Energy and consciousness. My new frequency went out into the consciousness stream and impacted those who resonated… This is the future, folks. Believe it!